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Tuesday, December 30th, 2008
7:11 pm - Huh, this is still around
wow didn't realize my old LJ account was still around, I haven't logged in in about 4 years...almost to the day..crazy.  No worries though I probably won't update too often, though I guess I could fix up the look of my journal now...eh

current mood: amused

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Saturday, December 25th, 2004
10:19 am - Merry Christmas
Hey guys you have a wonderful one, and be safe and I look forward to hearing about all you're wonderful gifts and what not. Have a fantastic day


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Thursday, November 25th, 2004
12:52 pm - Happy Thanksgiving

Thanks for making yet another year in my life as enjoyable as the last, if not more so:) I hope you all have a safe and wonderful Holiday.
Don't eat too much Turkey now


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Saturday, November 13th, 2004
12:40 am - Some people man....
Hey mr Christian man, when's the last time God spoke to You?

What an unual question I received at work, I didn't really know what to think...


current mood: quixotic

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Thursday, November 11th, 2004
11:54 pm - Ever Wondered?
Is there a question you've every wanted to ask me but felt that I wouldn't answer it? Well here's a chance for you to ask me whatever and I'll answer it as honest as I can.

Neat huh?


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Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
10:37 pm - Indeed

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Sunday, October 31st, 2004
10:31 pm - Happy Halloween:)
Have a safe and groovy one...word


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Friday, October 15th, 2004
11:50 pm - OMG!

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Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
10:49 pm - A friend of Mine Did this!

he's on the right, his name is Michael Lynch...coolest thing ever

current mood: happy

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6:26 pm - In other news...
I got a new car today!! Clint is most happy. It's from Enterprise there at 35 and Judson, my friend Arthur took me there and I fell in love with a Saturn L200 (2003). It was only 10,700 and still had warrently left (in the end I bought the extended warrenty anyway, but you know)

I'm very happy. This is my first major purchase and sort of makes me feel like an adult. Sure I still live at home with my parents (sigh) but at least I now have complete ownership of my vehicle. Today is a landmark day in my life.

Although the passing of Deiter is a sad thing, I know that my new car will help me through it:) I guess that sounds really bad, unless you know that Deiter was the name of my truck, so bestowed many years ago, and although I never really called it that, it was still its casual name.

I guess that's all for now. Have fun


current mood: happy

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6:23 pm - Good Bye my friend....
Today I laid to rest a good friend, who's been with me for many years. We've been through so much together, it was hard to let go. I've done so much with him. Went to parties, dinner, movies, enjoying each other's company. It's hard to believe that five years can pass by so quickly.

I'll admit I didn't treat him the best of these past few years, but he was always faithful and never gave me a complaint. I've accidently injured him on a number of occasions, from small nicks and bruises to the one time I nearly killed him. It was amazing that he lived through that, as it was just a mere accident on my part. He nearly sacrificed himself to save me, and for that, I'm truly thankful.

His dedication is only surpassed by a rare few, and so I guess that's why I was reluctant to let him go. You will truly be missed my friend



current mood: sad

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Monday, October 11th, 2004
8:34 pm - Cool, I'm still alive
I don't really know what to say exactly, too much has happened since I last truly updated, so I'll do a quick run down and that'll be that.

Unknown to many who don't speak to me on a regular basis, I have started psuedo-teaching. I guess that about as good a way as I can describe it, as unlike the actual idea of the observational studies that I'm doing, I end up being more of a teacher's aide or something to that effect. I'm not complaining as it beats sitting there "watching" everything. This is abit more hands on and I get to interact with the kids.

Speaking of which I am "teaching" a 9th grade Algebra class at Burbank High school. The kids are rather nice over all if not a bit talkative and well things are going well there:) The teacher I'm working with V. Bunce as she's called, is kind of bossy, but a good teacher none the less. I'm not a big fan of the new teaching style that is designed to work with the exit tests the students now must take (EVIL NCLB ACT) but eh, what can you do.

In other news, work is going well, and school is going fair. I'm absolutely exhausted all the time now, so either I've developed anemia or I just dont sleep enough. Perhaps getting to bed at a decent time would help.

Also, I got myself a Gmail account. I'm now available at sarin000(at)gmail.com (I'd prefer not to be overly attacked by spam bots).

That's enough outa me, hope everyone else is doing well. Back to Math for me


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Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
10:59 am - I stole this from MikeMess
Join the Fun, until I'm done

Leave a comment with your name if you want to know what I really think of you, and I’ll reply and tell you. No lies, all honesty.

Post it in your journal after I do yours so I can see the reverse, yes?

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Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
11:08 am - but of course...

What Kind of Geek are You?
Favourite Color
Your IQ is frighteningly high
You are a gamer geek
Your strength is you actually have social skills
Your weakness is electrons
You think normal people are stupid
Normal people think that you are deranged
This fun quiz by owlsamantha - Taken 8364 Times.
New - Kwiz.Biz Astrology and Horoscopes

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Monday, July 12th, 2004
7:11 pm - ZAP!
Time for the expected update. I will keep this as brief as possible, as I've done way too much to go into detail on any of it...working backwards of course.

The latest news that I ahve is that our CD release party is coming up on July 17th...which is mega cool. We're opening for Bella Morte at Sin13, so that should be a good show.

Also, Mike and myself are working on a remix for Teh Last Dance. If you have the album "Whispers in Rage" we're doing the song "Somewhere more" Which is pretty good: We're supposed to be featured on the new remix album that will be coming out sometime, so we'll see how that goes.

In bigger news, I had lazer eye surgery over theweekend. It was very intense, but I can actually see pretty well now. My left eye is still recovering a bit as of this moment (they had to do a lot of work on it due to the severity of the astigmatism that it had) but my right eye is 20/20 so that's always ni No more glasses for clinty

The surgery was rather unnerving, but luckily quite quick, so that's always good. It did get rather painful afterward, but the real pain is in the drops that you have to put in your eyes every 2 hours, but even those don't hurt too much anymore. All in All, completely worth it.

I am however typing with my eyes closed (I'm stil sensitive to bright lights and wear these unusual goggles to protect my eyes).

I think I have a lot more to say, but well that's enough for now I suppose. Work is going well, Jess and I are are perfection, and I am very exciting with all the developments with the band. All in all., life is good.

Have a great one


current mood: cheerful

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Friday, June 4th, 2004
3:05 am - OFF TO AKON
Heading off to Akon now, be gone for the next 4 days or so, so um.. it's going to be mega fun:)

You guys be good now


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Friday, April 23rd, 2004
12:15 am - Sarin? Clint?
Who am I to you? Some know me as Sarin (though of course you know my real name) Most know me as Clint (though I'm sure you know my DJ/musician name too). I think online I tend to use them interchangably. Sort of silly when you think about it.

Perhaps a good Nickname would work best? Problem with Nicknames is that they sort of happen, you can't give yourself a nickname..but if you could, what would yours be?


current mood: quixotic

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Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
10:01 pm - Ultra Fast update
I got a job.
I work at Sam Ash
I work in the keyboard/recording section
Come see me

I'm still in school
I learn lots each day
I don't like my stats class too much
But I'm doing ok

Calculus is fun
But at times a challenge
Life is like that too
at times

Jess and are I perfect
We have love
Happiness is all around
I am Happy

Got a new keyboard
It has many sounds
I hope to use it soon in shows
Thanks Mike

I sell keyboards
I also sell pianos
I sell very well
I make Money

Top salesman am I
at least at the moment
perhaps a promotion is coming
here's hoping

A day off tomorrow
It's been a while
I need to do laundry
I stink

The band is successful
We play awesome shows
Joy Division would be proud
Friday, Communion, COME!

My friends you are great
I wish I spoke more often to most of you
I'm so busy, school work Jess
What is Freetime?

I hope you are all well
Safety is important
Proceed through life with a purpose
or at least have a ferret

current mood: weird

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Thursday, March 11th, 2004
1:56 am - I stole this from Josh
01. Why did you add me to your friend's list?
02. Why do you keep me on your list?
03. How much do you read my posts? (10% of the time...100% of the time)
04. Which of my icons do you like best?
05. Is there anything you wish I would filter from you?
06. Would you like to remove me from your friends list?
07. What do you enjoy most about my posts?
08. Is there anything about me that you'd like to know?
09. Do you think about me beyond the LJ realm (ie: have you ever randomly thought about me while NOT being on LJ)?
10. Tell me what you think of me. Physically, Mentally, Emotionally, etc.

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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
1:18 am - Sins of the Past
It's strange, I haven't updated in a while, I used to update this thing so regularly. I was skimming over some old entries from a few years back and realized a few things. One, I censored the crap out of my journal. I still do to some extent, but then, it was different. I had a lot to censor out. My feelings, my emotions, my desires, and lots of other things. I don't really have the desire to dig into all of that, but I do know that things of recent past are making some things harder as of late.

A foolish mistake on my part has hurt someone, and even though it's effectively over (the situation) it's still coming back to haunt me. Ever wish you could go back in time and change a few things? I know a lot of things I'd change (see 2001) but hey, what can I do? The mistake is resolved now I should point out, but still, I shouldn't have been so blind.

So, what is the thing I would most definitely change out of everything? Well that depends, if things managed to work out to where I am today, but with some improvements I guess the thing I would most change was how I handled my schooling, college to be specific.

I was such a waste of a student. I would never go to class, and barely managed to show up for tests. I don't know why I did this, I really wasn't doing anything. I'd like to think I was at home busying myself with other projects or what not, but I'm sure I just wasted the time doing nothing, or playing videogames or whatever.

So...over two years I wasted, managed to even get kicked out of school twice, because of stupid decisions and my inability to come to the realization I need to grow up and take control of my life.

Happy things have changed now, but I can't help I've wasted nearly 4 years that I could have done so much more with. I'm currently unemployed, I'm doing great in school, and I have a terrific girlfriend whom I could not ask anything more of. She’s the picture of perfection and I'm thank God I have her each day. If only for that one aspect do I not regret my choices up to this point. She really is something of a miracle worker. I've grown so much because of her, and I can't really deny that it isn't a fact. To look at me almost 2 years ago and compare that Clint with the one who stands before you today, you'd say "you had more hair then" and you'd also take note to my maturity (though I'm something of a clown all the same) but that I really to strive for success in my school work. It's the one thing that I am focusing on just under Jess. Unfortunately, I can't give Jess the full amount of attention she deserves, but in her perfection, she's able to understand that, and I know that I'm a lucky man for having her.

I realize this post is sort of cheesy to some, and to others it's over gratuitous perhaps? I just wanted to expel some feelings that were locked inside me. I don't often open myself up anymore, I don't know why. I hide a lot of strange emotions these tions these days. I don't even really understand it, but sometimes the smallest thing really gets to me and I feel my eyes somewhat water. I think I'm just slightly depressed from some of the things I've done in my past. I could never truly reveal some of those things here, for the consequences (real or imaginary) would be far to great and I'm not a strong enough man to handle them. I think only Jess truly knows those things and very few others have a faint idea. It's not important anyway, but it does bug me to no end. Strangely, I was able to put most of that stuff out of my mind for so very long, and eventually IW as able to tell Jess of my terrible deeds. Rather than shy away from my and leave me hanging, she took me in her arms and told me it was ok. An angel.

What can I do now? I really have no regrets anymore. To dwell in the past is to prevent myself from achieving my future. I guess I just wanted to place into words the way I've felt I was saddened that I hadn't updated in so long, not because things haven't happened in my life (on the contrary, so very many interesting and wonderful things have happened as of late, its really stupid that I haven’t updated) and yet still I refuse to. I guess I knew that when I did update, I wouldn't be able to get to the actual things that have happened without confronting the ordeals that floated in my mind so casually to eventually be brought to the fore front of my thoughts. I will update though, soon, about all the wonderful things as of late, like the band, and my incredible valentines day romantic weekend, and so many other great things. I'm doing well in school, in family, and friends. Really the only depressing thing I have is that I have no job, due to schedule problems, and perhaps a bit of my own stubbornness in avoiding working in the food industry any longer. I guess I see myself above it.

But that's enough, I've taken forever to write this entry, I'm tired. I wanted to go to sleep over an hour and a half ago now, but I sat here staring at my screen, waiting for the words to fall from my mind and to share what I've been trying to express. Strangely, most of this will probably strike most as nothing more that pure drivel, that's ok, I understand that even I can't read such long self serving posts. If you've made it this far, I must thank you.

I've also taken note of an annoying character trait of mine. I have utmost desire for praise. I need reassurance, to be told that I'm doing good, and that things that I do are good. It has to be absolutely annoying to those around me, and for that, I'm sorry, I shall work on it. I know I've pointed out this flaw before, but I've never tried to over come it. I guess this stems from low self esteem or something, I don't know for sure.

I've exhausted my thoughts. Half of me wants to write more, but the other half realizes that I usually post to my journal because I desire to read comments, though I know that no one will comment on this entry. It's strange, I write something meaningless and I'll get so many comments, and I write something like this and people avoid it like the plague. I was once told that people are afraid to comment due to their lack of anything to say to the situation. I think I tend to start my entries with a problem and manage to talk myself into some sort of resolution. It's a typical pattern that I've been following lately, when I looked back on the more serious entries as of late. Is Live journal my form of therapy? Would it be wrong to comment on someone's thoughts? I guess it would feel that way.

I know it's time to move on.

current mood: contemplative

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